By now everyone knows that I have had a baby and that my baby is a month old. By now everyone has been made aware of how my labor went and how I handle it. I have received praise and congratulation from everyone. Now, I want to tell you all how having a baby has changed me.
On Tuesday I was asked if I thought having a baby changed me and I couldn't answer the question. I began to think to myself, changed me how; I am the same person I was before I had Lee. For some reason that question remained with me and I began to wonder, have I changed and if so how have I changed. So, have I changed? And the answer would be yes, I have changed. It's obvious that my life has changed as far as sleeping like I use to, shopping like I use to, and going any where I wanted to go when ever I wanted t go. But how have I changed under the surface.
Emotionally, my heart made room to love someone else; so I am not as selfish as I was before I had Lee. I have began to place his needs first, and I though that it would not happen. For 32 years I only had to think about myself and now I have a little person that I have to think about and provide for. The shift in the way that I think is something that just happened; I really can't tell you when the shift actually took place, but it did. I am also a little disconnected for my husband, family, and friends because I am all into Lee. So, my relationships have changed emotionally. I haven't found that balance yet, and that can be very frustrating for everyone. Lastly, I have become more patience. I found myself taking more deep breathe and just saying to myself he is just a baby.
I am sure that I will continue to change over time, but for now these are some of the traits that I have noticed that have changed. I have conversed with alot of women and they all talked about the obvious changes that will happen, so I was ready for those changes; but I didn't know that I would change as person so much. I still desire the same things I have always desired, but this world looks different to me now that I have become a parent. I can't tell you when the transformation took place but it did. And if any of you out there are pregnant please be aware that you will transform too.
On Tuesday I was asked if I thought having a baby changed me and I couldn't answer the question. I began to think to myself, changed me how; I am the same person I was before I had Lee. For some reason that question remained with me and I began to wonder, have I changed and if so how have I changed. So, have I changed? And the answer would be yes, I have changed. It's obvious that my life has changed as far as sleeping like I use to, shopping like I use to, and going any where I wanted to go when ever I wanted t go. But how have I changed under the surface.
Emotionally, my heart made room to love someone else; so I am not as selfish as I was before I had Lee. I have began to place his needs first, and I though that it would not happen. For 32 years I only had to think about myself and now I have a little person that I have to think about and provide for. The shift in the way that I think is something that just happened; I really can't tell you when the shift actually took place, but it did. I am also a little disconnected for my husband, family, and friends because I am all into Lee. So, my relationships have changed emotionally. I haven't found that balance yet, and that can be very frustrating for everyone. Lastly, I have become more patience. I found myself taking more deep breathe and just saying to myself he is just a baby.
I am sure that I will continue to change over time, but for now these are some of the traits that I have noticed that have changed. I have conversed with alot of women and they all talked about the obvious changes that will happen, so I was ready for those changes; but I didn't know that I would change as person so much. I still desire the same things I have always desired, but this world looks different to me now that I have become a parent. I can't tell you when the transformation took place but it did. And if any of you out there are pregnant please be aware that you will transform too.
That's my story so far,but I want to hear yours. Please inform me of how you may have changed after having your child, or give me a heads up on what to look forward to. Until next time.....
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